Wake me up when October starts

I wish I have more time to do a sound sum-up for my recent life but too tired to do so. After days and nights of struggling I ended up commiting myself in CC and AIESEC. And with the induction day of AIESEC today I finally got a clearer sense of identity of being an AIESECer. Life rocks with challnges, and life sucks without desserts, ok it's just me... -________-"

We were asked to write a letter to ourselves 3 years later and on my short letter it goes " Looking back, you should have no regrets." Thank God for everything that I have and anything I don't have. I really woke up when September ends... and live a life!

Love Lingnan, love AIESEC, love CC. (sorry for the cliche... I know...)

Plus, a great time with "Chow gu leung" & my lovely brothers and sisters... literally eaten too much though...

Wake me up when September ends

College life is really something! But at the very same time, too much information, too many people, too little time, and too ambitious as a helpless, vulnerable, stupid human being.

La Decadence

We sing, we drink, we hit the dance floor.

Loose your body,
embrace your curve.

May our youthful wilderness flee,
to the psychedelic night.

Sometimes, all we need is just a sudden flash, to draw stangers closer.

鐵漢柔情

人人知長毛憤怒、激進，但表象背後的他是何許人，我們都未必很了解。看他跟一群大專與小學生的訪問，才發現原來他很Man、很温柔。

被小學生訪問，他不扮低B，但講故事拉筋唸急口令樣樣有求必應，氹得一班細路掩嘴呵呵大笑，間中加插一些他們半懂不懂的人生道理，莊諧並重。被大專生訪問，他說起他的童年、他的人生信念、他搞社會民主運動的原因、與對我們這代年青人的期許：好奇心、激情和悲憫心缺一不可。我心中默念一遍，把這三個元素放進口袋 。

在這個世界，堅持不值得多少茶匙，直率敢言難免換來白眼。哲古華拉T恤與一把長髪要留住並不困難，但要抗爭四十年，卻殊不容易。君不見香港的民主娘親就是一次遊行也堅持不住，要中場恤一恤髪？長毛不會中場恤髪，他屬於街頭，是down-to-earth的一條好漢。而聽他說話，會察覺他不做議員，大可以做思想家、學者、Mentor。

鐵漢的柔情與智慧，原來更能叫人的心融化。

一個回首

盼了很久，終於等到了四川小朋友給我的回信。信上提到的一句很軋心，她說，人在回首五百年後所得到的緣份也只是擦肩而過。我捧着這句話讀了良久，心裡很受感動。云云眾生折騰幾千回，也不過為一次擦肩回眸，有時候，甚至連一個眼神的交換也來不及，就彼此錯過了。而能夠和思想這般成熟的人交換文字想法，看到這樣的一句，也如百年等來的一杯蜜水，來得彌足珍貴。

過去的七個年頭，我因為一份不憤，讓自己錯過了許多回頭的機緣，把自己撞得灰頭土臉的。我常常在想，要是能聽話一點就好了，至少會讓自己的人生平順一點。任性倔強、不識時務使我失得不少，但我所遇到的、所遇不到的，都會是最美好，畢竟他們成就了今天的我。

來日回首，必要活得比今天更美麗。

Thoughts on Quality & Image

“ If you control your factories, you control your quality.
　　If you control your distribution, you control your image”
　　　　　　　　　　　　　 　　　　-- Bernard Arnault, CEO of LVMH

Where are my factories? and where are my distribution?

昨夜, 燭光如海

(Sina.com.hk)

那一年，我才剛出生。

八九年的春天，當他們為larger-than-life的信念在天安門廣場上撒上鮮血時候，我仍在母腹。當民主思潮席捲全世界，柏林圍牆倒下的時侯，我仍只懂喫奶。當東歐鐵幕瓦解，日月變天，人說那是歷史的終結的時侯，我才牙牙學語，一步一步地學走路。

然後，血被黃金舖過了，灰塵爍石都消散殆盡了，懵懂的我站在歷史的背後，彷彿一切都與我無尤了。

而昨夜，燭光如海。我坐在人群成為其中一個，二十年來首次參與歷史，因為認識是我們的權利、關心是我們的責任。二十年後，愈是想被遺忘的歷史，愈是被記憶起。在這片中華大地，香港作為最後一個擁有可貴自由的角落，維園場內外十五萬人手心捧着的、舉起的不只是白燭，更是對是非的堅持與誠諾的承傳。記憶與遺忘的鬥爭不斷交纏，到底誰是強者、誰是弱者；又是誰在沈默、誰在呼喊呢？

有人說，你看經濟多繁榮，舊史不需記。但忘記歷史的民族，所謂進步是虛浮表面的。
有人喊，要全面走向民主，代價不惜。但目睹蘇聯時代留下的教訓，我們又該如何自處？

坐在我們身旁的一位伯伯，七十五歲了，也明白平反之日恐難在有生之年能見，但仍很踏實的盼望着。而放眼四周，一片燭光中像我們般的年輕的面孔更多。

毋忘六四，薪火相傳，進步的歷程任重而道遠。



血染的風采


自由花


歷史的傷口


Donald Tsang, Please Die

Little joy, little afternoon

My new-found fav...Very retro..Very indie..Reminisence of the 60s..
( Don't Watch Me Dancing, Brand New Start & Next Time Around are also great!!Alison.)

Little Joy on MySpace

Splash!

The perfect mixture of art and technology.
The epitome of panic, pain and ecstasy.

New life can’t wait!

" As your days, so shall your strength
be." - Deuteronomy 33:25

Living a life you love is like falling in love with someone - It gives you strength to do anything you want to do and gives you glow on your face, and even more so.

No offence to the creation of exam but if the whole AL thing was my Medieval, then the post-AL era would naturally be my Renaissance. Much as I am a hopeless decadent from time to time, I’m an aspiring-to-be-disciplined person through and through. And now, I finally landed on my personal promised land. With the whole “I-feel-like-doing-something-more-interesting-oh-no-I-have-to-study” torture left behind, my life is happier than ever. I picked up the piano (seriously) and started the Discipleship training, the everyday practice and homework really keep my discipline in good shape, and instil new energy to my body and soul.

And today, I finally started reading Haruki Murakami (村上春樹)'s Kafka on the Shore (海邊的卡夫卡)! How can I not read it ASAP??? I was once told that people past eighteen are already considered too old to read his books!!! Please tell me I’m not a grungy old lady who is still holding on to her once restless youth.

Anyway, I have to work the whole campaign out. Thank God for letting me to bump into John Keats’s Poetry collection(also today), which for literature-savvy person the genius’ pieces must have already been read years ago but, for a caveman like me, the pilgrimage has just started.

So if you hear the whisper of the cicadas, it’s homecoming of summer, and the ode of a born-again life. Amen.

Get a life!

When reality comes, it rips off your skin and scorches your every remaining flesh. The good news is, I still got my Campina yogurt and marshmallow, my final salvation.

是日金句/Quote of the day

A. 「唔係丫嘛?!...」
今天回來在大堂等𨋢時，本來要到達地面的那部升降機居然不停站，失靈地直奔上雲梢。身旁一位南亞裔的男孩看傻了眼，情不自禁地低嘆一聲：「唔係丫嘛?!...」

我站在一旁也不禁失笑。笑這城市生活小意外，也好奇一位南亞裔男孩怎麼能聲情並茂，如斯到肉地說出一句道地的「唔係丫嘛」。但想著又不禁取笑自己大驚小怪，難道人家不能自小已在香港長大嗎？他對香港說不定比你這六歲才來定居的人更要熟悉！我身住這大廈縱華洋共居，但就是同一層的近鄰也不全部認識，還學甚麼人高呼「社群共融」這口號呢？

B. 「狂者進取」還是「中庸之道」？
我說是「好戲一台」。很少覺得考試題目有趣，但今年這道中化題確有意思。天哪，這可是個上至國家中至團體下至個人皆難解答的問題。Good show啦總之。

C. "I don't take back what I said."
Miss California said "At that moment, I knew that after the answering the question, I was not going to win because of my answer."




In the face of a competition where people are desperately searching for fame, this is what we called "guts".

Socks and Sandals?

According to the Urban Dictionary,

“Socks and sandals” :
1. One of the WORST fashion mistakes ever.A trend among: Old ugly men, sporty/preppy girls, and black people.
2. A footwear combination worn only by the fashion-challenged.
3. The gangster way for wearing sandals.

I never thought people would have a definition entry for “Socks and Sandals”. The thought of searching for it began when I saw this picture of Chloe Sevigny wearing this combination the other day. And I just kept laughing when I saw all those “definitions”. People really love defining people and various stuff huh!

Ms Sevigny is one of the girl crush I have and everything she wears remind me of the word “Maverick”. She doesn’t wear clothes that looks typically elegant or would appeal to men. Some people think she's crazy. But she just wears what she feels like wearing. I kept looking at the picture and thought, how boring the world would be if there’s no one willing to take risk?

悠悠的風

那陣悠悠的晚風、那陣淡淡的炊煙... 林一峰+麥兜一家，原來能如此安慰我心

悠悠的風
林一峰／香港童聲合唱天地
原聲帶曲：Brahams Waltz In A Flat Op 39 No.15 詞：何崇志 編：謝立文

風　悠悠的風　悠然在這一刻晚空
遙遙遠山　靜靜遠海　淡淡新月已漸上
風　悠悠的風 悠然在這一刻晚空
遙遙晚舟　寂寂晚鐘　默默燈火已漸上

豆腐青菜　鹹魚瘦肉　預備筷子　預備煲湯　
陣陣米香　預備你喜歡的撚手菜

風　悠悠的風　悠然在這一刻晚空
遙遙遠山　靜靜遠海　默默看星星閃閃爍

預備洗菜　預備切肉　
豆豉爆雞　豆腐煮魚　
臘肉芥蘭　味味你喜歡的撚手菜

煙　陣陣炊煙　悠然在這一刻晚天
徐徐晚風　默默晚鐘　靜待你返屋企晚飯　靜待你返屋企晚飯

悠悠的風：http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j77yl3DzEVk
原曲：http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tBteIPP832s

The art of bergaining power and the fascinating twist of politics

"It was the best of time, it was the worst of time.

It was the best of time, it was the worst of time, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the the season of light, it was the season of darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair, we had everything before us, we had nothing before us, we were all going direct to Heaven, we were all going direct to the other way." --- Charles Dickens, a Tale of Two Cities

The new order of the world is emerging, and now here we are, in the age of this extraodinary quote, with the world unfold before our eyes.

2009-04-02
(綜合報道)二十國高峰會議（G20）在倫敦召開，外界視一直放在如何應對金融危機和國際監管新秩序上，突然之間，中法傳出陷入低谷的關係出現轉捩點，兩國外交部共同發表新聞公布，稱法國「拒絕支持任何形式的西藏獨立」，為這次國際會議添上戲劇性的場景。

中法關係自總統薩爾科齊上任後，道路並不平坦，由出席京奧的問題開始，薩爾科齊都對中國表現出冷淡態度，其後在藏獨問題上，雙方關係日見緊張，直至薩爾科齊以歐盟輪任主席身分會見達賴喇嘛，正式觸怒中國，早前總理溫家寶(相關)訪歐，刻意繞了一個圈偏不到訪法國，這種不友善姿態，在近年中國外交場合中，可說極為罕見，中國高調表達的不滿和施壓，相信是促成昨日公布的原因，內裏肯定經過兩國外交官員大力的斡旋。

繞了大圈回到起步點
在兩國公報中，雙方重申高度重視中法關係，並會恢復高層對話。法國官員透露，正在倫敦出席峰會的國家主席胡錦濤(相關)，已安排與法國總統薩爾科齊會晤，為兩國關係破冰。能夠達致這個成果，相信與法國在西藏問題上作出讓步有直接關係。
在今次中法公報中，特別以單獨段落闡述了法方在西藏問題上的立場：「法國充分認識到西藏問題的重要性和敏感性，重申堅持一個中國政策，堅持西藏是中國領土不可分割的一部分。這一由戴高樂將軍做出的決定沒有也不會改變。本這一精神，並根據不干涉內政的原則，法國拒絕支持任何形式的『西藏獨立』。」換言之，薩爾科齊繞了一個大圈，又回到原先的起步點，其中承諾「拒絕支持任何形式的藏獨」，更有針對薩爾科齊種種動作的味道，過程中，亦暫時未見法國可以從中得到任何實質好處。

西藏問題是中國近年在外交上遇到的重大議題，去年京奧舉行，全球焦點集中在大陸，間接亦成為藏獨爭取注視的機會，北京方面亦一度表現得投鼠忌器，最後，京奧成功舉行，各國政要雲集鳥巢，西藏議題由高點向下滑落，北京亦調整對支持藏獨力量的策略，致力縮窄藏獨的空間。過去，法國在藏獨問題上，一直態度是採取官方不支持，民間不禁止，這次與法國達成新的協議，不能說完全解決了問題，但至少已大大削弱了達賴在國際間的聲勢。

「壞孩子」矛頭轉向美國
國際關係，從來是赤祼祼的實力較量，弱國無外交，這個道理中外如是。今次倫敦峰會，薩爾科齊繼續其不甘寂寞的「壞孩子」角色，聯合德國挑戰美英的經濟同盟，此舉明顯是想趁美國自顧不下，挑戰其全球最強國家地位，此舉與其前任，在美國國力充沛時，反對支持出兵攻打伊拉克，不可同日而語。對中國來說，中法關係破冰，反映國際關係的轉向，為參加G20帶來了好的開始，但在國際關係波詭雲譎，全球經濟利益錯縱複雜下，北京仍需膽大心細，才能夠充分對應當前的形勢。
http://news.sina.com.hk/cgi-bin/nw/show.cgi/7/1/1/1088455/1.html

Losing Ourselves:Thoughts on the social network du jour

We are afraid of losing someone’s information, and become too busy to aware that we are, bit by bit, losing ourselves.

“But here’s the thing, the more interested I get in famous Writer ’s life, the less interested I get in my own. I’m in danger of paying more attention to her dog and her meals and her friends than I do to mine.” By Lev Grossman in Time

“Seeing other people friending, poking, twittering – social networking holds us all captive. Now may be the time for users to take control.” By Jesse Ashlock

Facebook has actually gotten quite obsolete, and now, it’s the reign of Twitter. Ironically though, we are still under the big hand of our insecurity, and those social monsters, no matter in what form they come.

2 Quotes re-examining Sex, Money and Power

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　" 女性主義，不是要騎劫男人，也不是唯女獨尊——否則也不過是「男權」的翻版而已。我相信的女性主義，正正是因為經歷了這麼多的不平等，所以講的是關懷，講的是平等，是站在小眾的角度去發現、去詰問這個世界的不公，從而親身親力爭取平權的到來。女性主義，不是要女人騎在男人的頭上，而是希望創造這樣一個社會：誰都不騎在誰的頭上， 平等相處，互相尊重。

...... 今時今日我們的社會是不是太缺少「勇氣」了？"
http://www.inmediahk.net/node/1002313

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　　　" 「選擇生活，選擇工作，選擇事業，選擇家庭。選擇他媽的大電視，選洗衣機、車子、CD機、電動開罐器，選擇健康，低膽固醇，牙醫保險。選擇定息低率貸款，選擇房子，選擇你的朋友，選擇休閒服和搭配的行李箱，選擇他媽的布料系列中的某三件頭西裝，選擇DIY，然後在星期日早晨質疑自己他媽的究竟是誰？選擇坐在那張沙發上看麻痺心智碾碎靈魂的電視遊戲節目，往嘴裡塞垃圾食物。選擇在這一切的終點徹底腐爛，在悲慘的家裡撒最後一次尿，對你用精子搞出來的自私混蛋小孩來說，你只意味著難堪。選擇你的未來，選擇生活……但我幹嘛要做這種蠢事？我選擇不選擇人生，我選別的。」

這段話當年對我簡直是醍醐灌頂。它那麼透徹地指出了資本主義典型生活裡的諸項選擇，其實是虛假的而且悶透了，你拒絕它是理所當然的。不必吸過迷幻的海洛英，二十歲後經歷三次金融危機，我深信這段迷幻青年的宣言裡的拒絕力量，是比煙草稅狂加之後，只許高官飲酒不許百姓食煙的社會更為正面的起點。 "
http://www.inmediahk.net/node/1002430　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　

D. It's written/a tale of 2 great movies

And so I watched Revolutionary Road and Slumdog Millionaire in three days. Each of them represents two completely different interpretation of destiny. One surrenders to the “hopeless emptiness” of life and one believes in the hopeful promise that in the name of insistence we will finally reach. Whether destiny means something in life you can never give up or something you can never change remains an interesting question. But I would rather believe in the former one.

Brave your life like one of those crazy people.
After all, life is merely like a mad game, and all can happen by chance.

"Every moment of his life, is a clue to the answers."

“You have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. Because believing that the dots will connect down the road will give you the confidence to follow your heart, even when it lead you off the well-worn path, and that will make all the difference.” ---Somehow I couldn’t help but link up the movie with what Steve Jobs said.

Life, oh life!

There are two things in life that make you feel relentless.

One is something you don't feel like doing, but you have to conquer it, because no matter what, it shapes you at the end of the day.

The other one is something someone ask you to surrender, but the truth is, it is merely a myth, nonsense, bullshit. With or without it, your life, your mission, your goal can still be accomplished at the end of the day.

Why waste precious time being manipulated when a life in pursuit is so much better?

So let’s embrace the tough challenges ahead, knock down those stupid old suits and transform yourself into a better person!

"Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary." --- Steve Jobs

Wish you were here

過的快活不快活的時候，總有種非得舞墨三千字不可的傻勁。然而因為沒有了停下來的權利，總不得不硬生生的吞了回去，心裡卻總不是那麼踏實。這兩年來妥協總沒好好學懂，崚角卻是不斷的撐的大了又大，好像連未來的風景也給撐走了。不喜歡被人牽著鼻子走的人，卻終會被自己的任性扯著。

太陽
詞曲 陳綺貞
我膽小的對自己說 就是這樣嗎
我是你夜裡的太陽 也是你 影子裡的悲傷
我問我 這世界是否 一如往常 讓我照耀你安息的時光
你是我 小心維護的夢 我疲倦的享受著 誰也無法代替你的光芒
我是我 一碰就碎的太陽 我熱切的希望 能在消失之前 得到信仰
我膽小的對自己說 就是這樣嗎 我是你眼裡的太陽 也是你鏡子裡的驕傲
我問我 這世界是否 一如往常 需要我在擁擠午夜發光
你是我 小心維護的夢 我疲倦的享受著 誰也無法代替的孤傲
我是我 疲倦流浪的太陽 我熱切的希望 能在消失之前 得到信仰
你是我 小心維護的夢 我疲倦的享受著 誰也無法靠近的孤傲
我是我 疲倦流浪的太陽 無法為自己 無法為誰 靜止下來
我是我 一碰就碎的太陽 我熱切的希望 能在消失之前 得到 信仰

Sometimes you have to go halfway around the world,
to come full circle.

- Lost in Translation

十年以後呢

不知怎的，當聽見他再婚的消息，一陣難過湧上心頭。其實都與我無尤，但卻忽然會以女人那種麻煩難纏的思緒聯想到了許多。古有蘇軾為悼其元配妻亡，書下十年生死兩茫茫之思念情切，那份深情躍然詞間，感人至深。重情義如蘇軾，一夫多妻多妾始終難免，一個妻子也居然好歹佔用過此才子十年時間的思念，又何況凡夫俗子呢。「你們男人想想自己將來老伴比自己先走，也理應找個人來照顧一下吧。」席間眾男人鴉雀無聲，他們想想亦覺有理，女人也自覺無不可，只是沒有人敢說穿。這便是再婚的理由了，聽上去如此天經地義，又如此理直氣壯。